This is a throwaway so I can be dumb and learn stuff
Career/partial life bio
Decided to trim this about down, will post pastebin links overtime
Apr 2025
Life goes on... I'm in a good spot atm. The other day I dropped $1.2K at a strip club that was not great. I also busted my car's alloy rim so I have to get that replaced. Still solo, desperate needy guy. I'm lifting though, benching 230 lbs now. I decided to quit porn as I think that has negatively influenced my interactions with women, I still choke the bishop as they say but with other media.
Oh yeah I did find a great EDM place, jumping dancing... but I decided to climb this face in the alley so I'm probably banned from there damn.
I'm still being dumb, club-hopped last weekend, ended up hugging a toilet puking at the last place. Now just trying to increase my social interactions and decrease alcohol.
Life is not bad. My mgr is actually supportive of me. I even started an office thing of Hawaiian shirt Thursdays ha. But yeah still need to get financially secure.
Mar 2025
I am a major dumbass though last night I was driving (not sober), I had a random guy I met's firearm in the car, like if I was pulled over I would have been f'd and I was going over 150mph so yeah... dumbass. Idk why I do it.
I'm going to be pro-active about not repeating the above because my life is not bad, I make good money/single, healthy... be dumb to throw it away go to prison or whatever. I've been to jail before it sucks ass.
Hashing it out with manager we'll see, I think it's a me problem, get less butthurt
Still clean record, next problem
I will probably be a criminal after today (19) eg. a misdemeanor from being too drunk in public.
Same old, driven by fear of debt and loneliness.
Nope, another work issue, aiming for ending my contract and moving on, my side gig may be an option
Work relations are improving, actually got a buddy to hang with now
https://pastebin.com/5xCTbGsu (2023 - Mar 2025)