Sorry to hear about your illness and job loss--though we don't know each other. As a fellow human, in addition to the words, I can share some of my own perspective:<p>The things that were meant to be, <i>will</i> be. That's for acceptance.
But we have free will (sort of). And that's for action.<p>Also, highly recommend these books so that you can also take a more active role for your health (but you need to exercise extreme caution and critical thinking as some of the stuff in there may not be valid or valid anymore):<p>1. Back to Eden (J. Kloss)
[says in one section on pregnancy that expectant mothers must avoid all meat--which is bad advice. But there are some good ones there, nevertheless]<p>2. Let's get well (A. Davis)<p>3. You can get well (A. Davis)