I did a <i>LOT</i> of that. We made our own in undergrad; depending on audacity and effort we made stuff ranging from beautifully clear, crystalline needles to stuff that looked like satans' earwax. Extremely memorable stuff, that at that moment in life, was a very good thing to happen to me in order to learn how to connect with my feelings.
I did it once. Felt like my consciousness rocketed "up" out of my body, but not up through physical space, through some 'adjacent' space. Then I saw/felt "infinity". There was no time, and I saw a hundu-esque god/goddess with infinite arms. I had no interest in eastern religion prior. Not disinterested either. I just didn't think about it, the way I don't think about golf.<p>It was a neat thing to experience.
I have done Ayahuasca. I think it's dangerous to say it is "healing"... it's a window not a door. You have to be careful, some personalities will develop psychosis and disconnection from reality. You will certainly end up above where you started but there may be a deep trench you have to walk through. Especially amongst type-A highly IQ and rationality driven people this is very likely IMO.
I assure you this is mostly a set/setting problem and why it's recommended to do with experienced (and more importantly, grounded) facilitators. It can leave you pretty open and suggestable, drinking with a group of lost souls and escapists is not recommended especially if you're new to it. (I've worked at traditional retreat centers and have drank hundreds of times; it's a little funny when someone comes in expecting to be able to build a story and further their escape then have their bubbles burst by a grounded point of view)
IMO This is a dangerous way of thinking. This is the Timothy Leary adage that you are stating. It is not just a "set and setting" issue. Whether or not you have a good or bad trip, or whether you are alongside kind empathetic people or whether what you see is positive or negative does not matter. It has a lot to do with the person individual makeup, sensitivity, ego-centricity, and pre-ingrained beliefs. They do not automatically go away after the trip and the realization. The realizations come into conflict with them. This can very easily be a catastrophic event for some.<p>I personally think Ayahuasca gives an amazing capacity to see the potential within the universe and within ourselves... it is nearly infinite. However if you deeply understand the world and how mis-aligned it and yourself are from that potential it can create tragedy. If you believe you are responsible for this tragedy it can create catastrophe. I don't mean to over-extend my own experiences too far.<p>What if there is a book that when you read it you would know for 100% certainty when you die there is no hell, and only infinite peace, unless you wanted to go back into hell. Should everybody read that book?<p>That's what taking Ayahuasca felt like for me. I don't think it is great to do for everyone. I'm curious to hear your thoughts as you have much more experience than me. I had a lot of challenges after taking it.
I think you're right that those "type-A" folks with more rigid minds have some trouble with integration ("catastrophe"/"tragedy"). Our (what I'd call the traditional) approach is very holistic- this path is a whole modality and lifestyle of its own, it's not a haphazard magic pill you do once but a tool to look under the hood every once in a while to see where you're at and what energies are influencing you the most. The earlier sessions can seem catastrophic without the right context (that is, there is usually a <i>lot</i> of low-hanging fruit that comes off when you first come to ayahuasca- you usually have to feel/fully experience these energies to process them before they can be released). You might see/realize that you have a lot of work ahead of you which can be discouraging/overwhelming for sure. More serious cases (long term depression etc) might even want to start out with very small doses (or not at all) and let the ayahuasquero do their work (via icaros, and/or other plants/methods) for a few ceremonies first. (How do you drink the ocean? Sip at a time) In the tradition we work in, drinking ayahuasca is only one part of it. Signing up for a weekend retreat without a well-trained healer can be...counterproductive. The biggest tragedy is casual/new seekers not knowing the landscape- there are many pitfalls and a lot of charlatans, it's probably going to get worse before it gets better with legalization efforts to be honest.
> build a story and further their escape<p>Can you explain what this means?<p>Like do they come in hoping to bring back a narrative?
It's self-indulgence essentially, and being around other "drop outs" (I don't really like calling anyone that) can make it seem like it's the right thing to do and you're somehow making progress by just drinking (when you're really just lying to yourself). It's a big trap- spirituality as a fad/fashion. I don't like to blame anyone stuck there (we really all are on our own journey, who's to say if it's right or wrong even if it looks like a big detour to me. Some people just aren't ready to face the truth, but at least being with the medicine will give them ample opportunity).
I’ve sat with 5MeO-DMT over a dozen times, always in the form of Bufo flake from the toad. It has been one of the most transformational and healing modality I’ve encountered. I have a low dose Jaguar (synthetic) pen that I use occasionally.<p>I’ve also used NN from a pen. It gave me a strange body load and intense kaleidoscopic visuals.
Small doses. Never enough to disassociate. Only lots of LSD and 4-HO-DET ever did that to me.<p>The most striking memory with DMT was at night seeing a moonlight cloud full of skulls staring back down at me. I frequently saw skulls in any texture.<p>It was very long ago. Unfortunately the dealer was raided.<p>It left a noticable residue in the simplistic vape we had and a few subsequent uses still carried traces of it.
Haven’t tried it, but I’ve been told by decades of research that it is present in many common plants, mostly in low but in certain cases substantial quantities, and merely needs to be extracted and purified via recrystallization.
DMT saved my life.